This is me

I was broken. I was battered. I was bruised. I wanted to give everything up, but God had different plans for me. I heard His still small voice and I knew that it was time. It was time for me to fight, and I was willing to do whatever it took to battle. I share this not for sympathy or for attention. I share this because I feel in my heart that someone, somewhere, feels the same way I did. 


Addiction, whether it’s drugs, alcohol, porn, food, shopping, etc. is a disguise of the enemy that wants to destroy you. The compulsiveness to fill yourself up with toxicity masks itself with euphoria, bliss, and validation; all in all just leaving you empty again. I was a chameleon. Forever changing who I was to fit the mold in any situation, or with any group of people. But I couldn’t do that here. From June 2018 to June 2019 I spent, not only battling my addiction, but battling my past, my inner demons, my identity, my fear of never knowing who I am, what I would become, and my fear of never being able to even accept myself. I battled. I fought. And now, I walk in victory. 


Yet even in the midst of all these things, we triumph over them all, for God has made us to be more than conquerors, and his demonstrated love is our glorious victory over everything!
Romans 8:37 TPT

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Published by Currently Recovering

My name is Eduardo. People call me Eddie. These are my stories, letters, and life as it happens. You'll be surprised to know that you and I are a lot alike. Stick around for the ride, you might just enjoy it.

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